Coming to terms with uncertainty

I think I'm getting to a point where I can rant and rave, cry and howl, make 'phone calls and send e-mails, but none of this is going to hasten the decision by the church as to whether or not they will be sending me to seminary next year.

And as Bill Thompson (my Superintendent) said to me yeaterday, I need to come to a "place of rest" concerning this issue. And he's right. I keep talking about trusting in God, and now it's time for me to put my moey where my mouth is. I need to trust God that whatever happens next year, my family will be with me, my son will have a place in a good school, my learnings in ministry will grow, and the Winterhoek Circuit will cope with the work of ministry whether I am there or not.

That the stationing process needs to be examined, and changes made, is beyond doubt - but perhaps that's something I need to tackle at a later stage, with a cooler head. In the meantime, the process needs to take its course - which means that a decision will be made, one way or the other, when Conference meets at the end of next month.

In the meantime, Bill has given me this passage of Scripture to meditate on:

Behold, I go forward, but he is not there; and backward, but I cannot perceive him: On the left hand, where he doth work, but I cannot behold him: he hideth himself on the right hand, that I cannot see him: But he knoweth the way that I take: when he hath tried me, I shall come forth as gold. My foot hath held his steps, his way have I kept, and not declined. Neither have I gone back from the commandment of his lips; I have esteemed the words of his mouth more than my necessary food (Job 23: 8-12, KJV).

Time for me to take note...

(As an aside, this is my 250th post since starting this blog.)